An author I’ve only read in bits and pieces once said that we digest and absorb our lives by turning them into stories. I’m not sure what my life will become – I’m less certain now than I’ve ever been – but I know I will write beautiful stories.
That sounds egotistical, and I don’t mean to be. I’m not a perfect writer. I don’t even know if I’m a good writer. I am unnecessarily fond of cliché, I can make the simplest subject matter maudlin and sentimental, I have no gift for narrative and when I find a word I like, I latch onto it and refuse to let go.
But I know I’m a writer, whether I’m a good one or not. The written word is my primary language and always has been. It’s the way I digest my life; the way I work through everything that hurts and package it into something light enough to lift. It also turns my emotions into something I can communicate. And that, to me, is the beauty and the mystery of words: that through them, something as wild and inexpressible as feelings can be clearly expressed. Language allows me to translate the wild vacillations of my heart into something other human beings with wild hearts can read, and maybe even understand. Continue reading